A note to myself - Happy 30

It have been years since I last updated my blog.
I am not sure why but it just came to my mind that I should re-visit my blog today.
I was reading a few posts I wrote years ago, and reminiscing all the good and bad times. I knew that I have turned out to be a little bit more mature and handling matters a little bit better and wiser than I used to be. I give thanks to God for what He had bless me with. And tonight, I pray that the blessings will continue and I will grow wiser each year.

I am now officially 30 and I know that I should consider seriously of the next step to take and the what should be next stage of my life. I still have wishes made many years back and are yet to come true, and I pray hard these will be come true real soon. :) I also pray that my family and loved ones will continue to be blessed with good health and deep faith. In Jesus' name I pray. Amen! :)


With lots of prayers and Loves,
Adel~

现在开始,努力

那种想见却没勇气见的心情

想要认真却不能认真的感情

你需要努力,要坚持。

你要做得到! 

期待着那一天。

仪儿

爱，要说出来

有很多时候，我们往往会忽略了身边的人，特别是我们的家人。
而我这里想特别指的是我们的父母亲。
在生活中，我发现了许多来自不同家庭背景的朋友。
能看到一些孩子跟父母亲的感情非常的要好，非常的融洽。
但是，也有一些人并不能好好的一起相处。
也许，对一部分人来说，父母跟长大了的孩子本来就是很难一起相处。
会遇到或听到一些人说，要跟父母沟通是很困难，
原因是因为大家的想法非常的不一样，当想法不同时，
往往就有了争执。就因为这样，这社会里有好多不快乐的家庭。
有一些人是恨不得早日离开家里，到外地去升学或工作，
为了就是能够离开那个让他们不开心的地方。
他们情愿花更多的时间在外头，也不愿意回家听父母的唠叨。
也许，我们不能一味怪罪于孩子们的身上，
父母也有很大的责任去维持家庭的融洽。
但是，想起来，身为孩子的我们，不是有更大的责任去保护我们的家庭吗？
为什么我们只将问题指向父母，
为什么我们只会去想父母是那么的不了解我们？
为什么就是要父母了解我们？我们不能去了解他们吗？
父母养育我们成人，爱护照顾我们，我们只做这一点小事也不能吗？
为什么我们能够跟爱人说“我爱你”，跟好朋友说“你就像我的家人一样那么亲”，
就不能够跟父母说？
在这个现代的社会，我们能够亲易的表达我们对爱人，好姐妹，好兄弟的感受，
我们能够说‘好想你’，‘你最好了'，‘谢谢你对我做的付出，我很感动!'等等的话，
却不能或没有勇气对父母说？
比起父母那个年代的人，他们要说出这些话，比我们更难吧？
那不就是说，我们这新生的这一代，更有责任去维持与家人的感情吗？

想想看，父母生我们，养我们，给我们教育，给我们衣食住行，
而一些做孩子往往的却向往离开家的那一天，
这实在是太没有人性了吧？
父母时时刻刻都要给我们最好的，
而我们不但没有回报他们，反而总是和他们唱反调。

婴儿时，父母不管是昼是夜都照顾我们，深怕我们会生病受惊，
在我们还不会走路时，父母牵着我们的小手，带领我们走每一步，深怕我们会跌倒受伤，
在我们还不会说话时，他们更是每天的重复一些简单的词，让我们跟着念。
在我们上幼稚园时，父母非常兴奋，因为孩子终于长大要上学了！
他们会办孩子的入学程序，买校服书包文具等等。
在我们还小时，他们经常抱着我们，亲亲我们的小脸蛋。
然后上小学，中学，大学。。
我们渐渐成长了，而他们也不能够像以前那样对待小孩的方式与我们相处了，
但是他们的心里，是那么想对我们说，孩子，你还是我们永远的那位心肝宝贝！

或者换一个角度想，
想想看以后你和另一半有了孩子，
你们是不是也渴望给孩子最好的。。你们是不是也要做以上的事。
你们是否希望你们与孩子的感情能够融洽，亲密得像好朋友？
如果你们想，那么我们也要知道，我们父母也想呀。

往往因为成人有生活中的烦恼，致使他们不能够表达心里的想法，
一遇到与自己的意愿不合的事，就会大骂孩子的任性和顽固。
其实他们也想好好的沟通，但是，就是做不到。
那么，如果是这样的话，我们，身为孩子的，应该接受他们。
避免与他们争执，说出你的感受，和平的沟通，
我相信父母即使是不同意我们，若我们能够好好的表达我们的感受，
他们慢慢的也会去接受我们的选择或想法。

如果心里又想对父母说的做的，
去说去做吧！
不要等到失去才后悔。
看看我们的父母，认真地看看父母的脸，
十年前，十五年前，二十年前，他们有没有改变？
认真地看看他们的脸，是不是多了很多岁月的皱纹？
看看他们的手，脚，还是如他们年轻时灵活吗？
看看他们的头发，是不是越来越多白发？

再看看我们自己，我们是不是好好的？
我们是不是已经长大了？
那是不是轮到我们照顾他们孝顺他们了？

是的。
爱要说出来！

Go go go! :)

我要的。。我能做到吗？

说真的。。。我知道我现在很幸福，

我也很感恩我现在拥有的一切。

可是同时我真的很讨厌自己，

为什么每一次要去实行对自己的承诺是却没有毅力。

好像做每一件事都有心无力。

我真的不想自己那么失败，每次答应自己要做要达到的却做不到。

我真的希望我的人生是更美好，

我希望我能够更积极的去争取。

我希望我做得到。

我不想看到自己失败的样子，

我不想答应自己了又做不到。

我不想成为一个失败的人。

我要坚持，我要努力，我要争取！

我只希望自己能够向自己设立好的目标，努力向前冲。:)

正能量！！ Go go go!

我能做到!就从今天开始！

主佑！:) :) :) :) :) :) :)

期待新年

我这里所指的新年是华人新年..嘻嘻

很想快快的考完试回家过新年.

这次回去就会留在古晋大概八个多月(因为二月至七月是我实习的时间),

意思就是九月中才会回来槟城这里继续读书,

虽然还是会想念这里的朋友,毕竟大家会有一段很长的时间不见面,

可是,家永远还是我最想要留的地方.

我真的很想要回家!

大概是逃避的态度吧,每每到考试的时期,

我这个毛病就会来了.

每一次,都想要好好认真读书,温习..

但是,每一次就是要到最后了才能够专心一点.

到了最后,就会一直觉得时间不够,

就会想很多,然后就像现在这样烦恼.

我很烦,又觉得很累,

不是睡眠不足的累

而是心理上的累.

考试时期, 我的心情会忽然之间变得紧张又急躁.

在夜里,我要用一两个小时才能入眠,

反而当我小睡时,我能很快地入眠,

最近小睡都不会超过一个小时,

为什么每天很夜才睡还是不能够好好睡.

然后隔天就只有到快要中午了才能够逼自己起床。

我只想好好的毫无压力及烦恼的入眠，能够精神的起床。

我祈求,这种负面的心情和想法,

能够把它完完全全的放在一边,

希望有多一点正能量和精神去面对考试.

我相信,这一切很快就会过去!

靠主的名,我献上这祈祷.阿们.

*期待新年的到来！期待美好的一切！笑7个！*

JJJJJJJ

Last day of class for Sem5

Today is the last day of class for this semester. 

Will be having 2 weeks of study week, then 2 weeks of final exam.

I will definitely miss my friends and coursemates since we would not be able to meet each other after exams.

After the finals, everyone will go home for CNY and then internship for 6 months, 

and we will only be able to see each other next year around September. 

A long long break for us! but working is no fun at all.

I would prefer to attend lectures and hehe haha with my friends.

But the best thing is I can stay at Kuching for 8 months for my internship and sem break! yay!

Christmas Eve tomorrow! cant wait to go to church and meet with Cathleen, my kuching sista!

I am so in Christmas mood! Hehehe! :)

Today is a great day! :D

Thank you Daddy God!

Praying for my family and friends so that they are always healthy, safe and happy! :)

What is Christmas to you?

What is Christmas to you?

Is it simply a day when you can have a break and relax at home,

or a day u can shop and do things that you want?

Or is it about gatherings, parties and dinner?

About the Christmas tree and home deco?

Or is it about giving to and receiving presents from your family and friends?

About house-to house caroling and performances?

YES! It is about everything that I mentioned above.

But Christmas is not only about presents, gatherings, and caroling!

Christmas is more than what you and me can count!

Christmas is about JOY, HAPPINESS and most important,

it's about LOVE!

The LOVE from God our father, Jesus our Savior, and Holy Spirit who guide us to the right path.

Can you imagine Jesus was born on Christmas Day for you and me?

He is the best present for everyone on Earth!

Let us rejoice for this joyful season.

Each year of Christmas reminds us to remember how great the love is from God.

Let us remember that Jesus came on this special day to save every single souls.

Yes Christmas is about LOVE.

Thus, we must remember that, in order to prepare ourselves for Christmas,

We have to repent for our sins and wrongdoings and

forgive those who have trespassed against us.

I received lots of presents from family and friends during Christmas every year.

Each year I will have surprises when I unwrapped my presents and I really love every single of them.

However, there was a present I will remember for the whole life.

It was not a physical present which we can see or touch.

But this 'present' did give me a very touching and memorable experience that I would remember forever.

I was having some sort of 'childish' conflict with my good friend when I was in Form 1.

We didn't quarrel actually, somehow we just stop talking to each other after an incident.

I felt very sad and disappointed and I wonder why friendship can be so fragile.

For that few months, none of us tried to approach each other.

Then it was year end holiday and we didn't contact each other ever since that incident.

During that year, on a very special day - Christmas Eve,

I received a phone call from that good friend,

and she apologized for what she has done,

and I was actually so shocked, and touched.

I never thought of receiving a call from her because I thought we will never be friends anymore.

I felt so sorry and I apologized to her too.

Since then we befriended again.

That was when I learned that, everyone knows Christmas is about joy, happiness and love;

but its not about joy, happiness and love when you can't forgive.

This year will be the first time celebrating Christmas away from home.

I miss everyone back home.

However, I believe that it can be an awesome Christmas.

The most important thing is I have my family and friends in my heart.

This year, I will be celebrating Christmas with my uni best friends.

I'm hoping for the best to come! :)

Be prepared for this joyful day everyone! Hohoho!! :D

Happy Day :)

Finally, I've done with my marketing plan presentation today! Yay!

To be true, I'm so happy because everything went smooth this afternoon.

After 3 months of hard work, sleepless nights, and all the stress moments,

I can finally conclude that everything is done for this project! ^^

I was so worried before we start presenting, but when we actually started, the fear was gone.

I believe that this is the little miracle that God granted on me and also my team members.

I thank God for everything in my life.

Although its just a presentation, but it meant a lot to me.

My team members and I were meeting up so many times from night to early morning to get our works done perfectly and to make sure we are well prepared.

I know the outcome of our project might not be as perfect like what I said, but we are satisfied

with what we've done. Next is to leave the evaluation part to the lecturer and coursemates.

Will be going out for shopping tomorrow! cant wait!

Have been so busy for 2 months and its time for me to relax before I proceed to the other 2 assignments!

* I lift up everything to God, hoping there are more blessings to come! *

All the best in life everyone! Be confident and stay happy always!

May God bless all of you always! :D

A team photo after our presentation. Credits to Siru, as this was from her phone. :)

A Happy Birthday Celebration :)

Happy happy birthday to me! C:

Ya I know. I'm one year older.

Did not manage to celebrate birthday at home this year.

Will only be back to home sweet home during CNY.

However, I was surprised with the video made

with wishes from dad, mum, emily, jasmine and joanne.

Celebrated with friends last sat (19/11).

Its a simple one, but with lots of laughter.

I really feel grateful deep from my heart.

I know i always have all of you with me.

This christmas, will be the 1st christmas away from home.

I miss the christmas carolings, i miss the visitings from house to house.

I miss everything back home. :(

I wont be able to go back as the christmas period is actually study week for my final.

I checked the air tickets and its expensive.

Hah..i was back to uni from home for only 1 week.

But mannn I feel like been here for so many weeks already! ><

Booked the air tic yesterday for CNY, but 2 months from now is LONG!!

I know i have to appreciate the moments spent in uni right now,

since only 2 months left to the end of sem5.

thats is why i keep on motivating myself to study and enjoy to the max before going for internship next year.

I hope my motivation is still ON..

Have to get back to study again. 2 more midterm papers to go!

Stress!

I'm here!

I don't understand the reason that

I will leave some words here almost every time when i have exams,

Perhaps its a way to ease myself.

My progress of revision is slow.

AND at this late night......

I'm still stuck at the 2nd chap out of 6 chaps that will be tested tmr!!

Quite disappointed with myself.

Should had motivate and urge myself to study harder!

Anyway, regret is no use.

Better get off to study now.

Will be back after test! :)

God, I pray for your blessings in the coming midterms!

Please bless me with intelligence, widsom, health and happiness!

AMEN! ^^

我是个离谱鱼儿！

今天我竟然发现已经是星期六了，

Deepavali的假期放了好多天让我不知道时间过得超级快，

这一次我真的发觉我是个好奇怪又离谱的人！！

还以为今天才星期五，本来还心想我说计划的，

还能准时完成，怎知，我只剩下一天的时间！

太离谱了！啊！ 还以为还有很多时间的 T.T

算了，今天不管怎样要努力k书了！

下个星期四就要回家放假一个星期了。

我一定要先把手头上的功课及复习做完！

很想写一个贴分享上个星期去Hatyai的点滴，

看来就只有回到家才有时间写了。

这个假期看来又是个 非常忙碌的了！

又要复习开学后的考试，又要做assignment！

刺激又给力！ xD

今天就到此为止，我要回去地球k书去！

:) nice day

Finally its friday and I can have some rest!

This week was really busy with lectures and tutorials.

and I have tonnes of assignments and projects to be completed!! T.T

hope everything runs smooth. i know i can do it! hehe (:

pray hard

I hate being here, alone.

I miss home, I miss my family.

How nice if i manage to fly back home anytime

i want.

To be honest, I seriously need someone who can spend time chit-chatting with me at night

I miss the moment having pillow-talk with sisters every night.

I know i'm too dependable to my family and friends.

The main reason is because I'm afraid being alone.

Although I have close friend that talk to me almost every night before we sleep,

but then that was only when my friend is in hostel.

When she is back home, i feel the same again.

i'm always okay in the morning, but feeling fearful to be alone at night.

i hate this feeling.

Dear God,

I know You are always with me,

please strengthen my faith,

remind me of your presence in my life.

remind me that I'm not alone,

because Jesus is my companion,

and there is nothing i shall fear.

In Jesus's name i pray.Amen.

motivation recharged! :)

4 down, 3 more to go!

but my level of motivation is decreasing :(

its because the mood of going home overrides the mood to study!

one more week to freedom! and 8 more days to home sweet home :)

*countdown-ing!*

i just hope i can do well in exams!

in order to achieve my plans, i must work extra hard!

only then, i can enjoy my 4 months holiday without worries!

may god bless everyone around me,

especially my family and friends, with health and joyfulness.

may god be with me throughout the exam week. :D

in Jesus's name, I pray. Amen! :)

みなさん、がんばってください！:)

God's word is Love :)

God's words gives me strength to continue.

God's words keeps me strong.

God's words builds confidence in me.

I'm revived! :D

I love you, God Daddy!

Please be with me throughout the examinations.

I need your presence, your blessings! :)

In Jesus's holy name, I pray! :)

感恩の一天

不知不觉又是考final的时候了。

还剩12天而已。

现在总于忙完所有的功课及presentation。

是时候努力拼书了。

我不懂我做得到吗。。会否又是不专心？

我告诉自己；

我要认真去面对每一件事。

一定要做到最好！

仪儿，靠主得胜！加油！J

感恩这一天。因为一切都进行得顺利，今天也是这学期最后一天上课了。

时间如飞箭的过，虽然感觉轻松，但是也有不舍得。

不舍得上语言课的老师及朋友。

毕竟有些来自不同的课系，难得有机会再聚在一起了。

各位朋友，有缘再相聚！J

与日语老师(めぐみせんせい)的合照 :)

老师颁给我们最佳戏剧奖哦！

永恩，我，欣铮

知足常乐-简单的道理

有时要幸运也要有天时地利人和。

这个也是种命运吧。

不是每个人都那么好运。

虽然说，人自己定他的命运。

可是往往命运主宰了人。

要怎么说呢？我自己也不懂。

我觉得。。。

做好自己的本分，其他的我们都不能决定，

也轮不到我们去决定。

不要怨天尤人，

我们还能够选择去做我们应该做的事。

命运的东西，很难说。

虽然看到其他人好，我们自然而然会羡慕，

但大家都看你好我好。。

不要忘记自己已经很幸福了。

知足常乐。这是很简单的道理。

醒一醒！

继续前进！:)

终于忙完活动了。

感谢及感恩，一切都顺利。

而且今天最难忘的就是木曜日的band performance!

觉得队长Kit很特别!

可惜没有拍到照片。

是有一点伤心。但是还好啦。

如果是有缘份再次听到他们演唱，那么就一定拍个合照了。

星期四，考两张试卷！我还没开始学！T.T

真的是忙到连功课都不能兼顾。

在大家都努力埋头苦干时，在大家已经学完了还在担心时，

我却是那位还没学又还没紧张的。

夸张。不是我不学，是我忙完后真的很累了。

给我睡个好觉，明天开始努力吧！

真的不能再堕落了。一定要努力和尽力。

加油啊，仪儿！

你能的！

がんばって Ganbatte :)

hold on.

for one more week.

everything will end soon!

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May god bless us in everything we do in life. Amen!

lover of my soul

Jesus, lover of my soul.

I love you, i need you.

Although my world may fall, i will never let you go.

Because you're my savior, my closest friend.

I will never let you go until the very end.

'Jesus, lover of my soul.'

love this song.

when i listen to it, it gives me strength to carry on. :)