Reflection

Had been eating, sleeping, watching dramas and movies these few days!

Alamak!! Finals in two weeks time! 

How I wish I can just focus on exams and study nonstop. T.T

Temptations and distractions are everywhere! 

Its so hard to control myself from sleeping and watching dramas!

Others is stress because they study a lot, but I'm stress because I relax too much!

2 days left for year 2011. 

Thinking and looking through of what I've done throughout this year,

some goals were accomplished, and some were not.

No matter how good or bad the experience in the past, or will be in the future,

I will treasure and appreciate every moment spent in my life,

for everything happens for a reason.

Everything is in God's plan. 

Our responsibility is to do the best we can,

 live and walk with love and faith 

and lift up everything to God.

I believe God has the best plans for each and everyone of us.

:)

Last day of class for Sem5

Today is the last day of class for this semester. 

Will be having 2 weeks of study week, then 2 weeks of final exam.

I will definitely miss my friends and coursemates since we would not be able to meet each other after exams.

After the finals, everyone will go home for CNY and then internship for 6 months, 

and we will only be able to see each other next year around September. 

A long long break for us! but working is no fun at all.

I would prefer to attend lectures and hehe haha with my friends.

But the best thing is I can stay at Kuching for 8 months for my internship and sem break! yay!

Christmas Eve tomorrow! cant wait to go to church and meet with Cathleen, my kuching sista!

I am so in Christmas mood! Hehehe! :)

Today is a great day! :D

Thank you Daddy God!

Praying for my family and friends so that they are always healthy, safe and happy! :)

What is Christmas to you?

What is Christmas to you?

Is it simply a day when you can have a break and relax at home,

or a day u can shop and do things that you want?

Or is it about gatherings, parties and dinner?

About the Christmas tree and home deco?

Or is it about giving to and receiving presents from your family and friends?

About house-to house caroling and performances?

YES! It is about everything that I mentioned above.

But Christmas is not only about presents, gatherings, and caroling!

Christmas is more than what you and me can count!

Christmas is about JOY, HAPPINESS and most important,

it's about LOVE!

The LOVE from God our father, Jesus our Savior, and Holy Spirit who guide us to the right path.

Can you imagine Jesus was born on Christmas Day for you and me?

He is the best present for everyone on Earth!

Let us rejoice for this joyful season.

Each year of Christmas reminds us to remember how great the love is from God.

Let us remember that Jesus came on this special day to save every single souls.

Yes Christmas is about LOVE.

Thus, we must remember that, in order to prepare ourselves for Christmas,

We have to repent for our sins and wrongdoings and

forgive those who have trespassed against us.

I received lots of presents from family and friends during Christmas every year.

Each year I will have surprises when I unwrapped my presents and I really love every single of them.

However, there was a present I will remember for the whole life.

It was not a physical present which we can see or touch.

But this 'present' did give me a very touching and memorable experience that I would remember forever.

I was having some sort of 'childish' conflict with my good friend when I was in Form 1.

We didn't quarrel actually, somehow we just stop talking to each other after an incident.

I felt very sad and disappointed and I wonder why friendship can be so fragile.

For that few months, none of us tried to approach each other.

Then it was year end holiday and we didn't contact each other ever since that incident.

During that year, on a very special day - Christmas Eve,

I received a phone call from that good friend,

and she apologized for what she has done,

and I was actually so shocked, and touched.

I never thought of receiving a call from her because I thought we will never be friends anymore.

I felt so sorry and I apologized to her too.

Since then we befriended again.

That was when I learned that, everyone knows Christmas is about joy, happiness and love;

but its not about joy, happiness and love when you can't forgive.

This year will be the first time celebrating Christmas away from home.

I miss everyone back home.

However, I believe that it can be an awesome Christmas.

The most important thing is I have my family and friends in my heart.

This year, I will be celebrating Christmas with my uni best friends.

I'm hoping for the best to come! :)

Be prepared for this joyful day everyone! Hohoho!! :D

Happy Day :)

Finally, I've done with my marketing plan presentation today! Yay!

To be true, I'm so happy because everything went smooth this afternoon.

After 3 months of hard work, sleepless nights, and all the stress moments,

I can finally conclude that everything is done for this project! ^^

I was so worried before we start presenting, but when we actually started, the fear was gone.

I believe that this is the little miracle that God granted on me and also my team members.

I thank God for everything in my life.

Although its just a presentation, but it meant a lot to me.

My team members and I were meeting up so many times from night to early morning to get our works done perfectly and to make sure we are well prepared.

I know the outcome of our project might not be as perfect like what I said, but we are satisfied

with what we've done. Next is to leave the evaluation part to the lecturer and coursemates.

Will be going out for shopping tomorrow! cant wait!

Have been so busy for 2 months and its time for me to relax before I proceed to the other 2 assignments!

* I lift up everything to God, hoping there are more blessings to come! *

All the best in life everyone! Be confident and stay happy always!

May God bless all of you always! :D

A team photo after our presentation. Credits to Siru, as this was from her phone. :)

现实 vs 真诚

人，往往都很现实。

大家都知道，这就是人的丑陋一面。

这是不可避免的，在这个时代如果有人说自己完全没有现实，我还真的不相信。

不是说现实是不好；但是，也要看是到什么程度吧。

总不可以因为现实而失去自己应该有的人格吧。

人，可以很假，在你面前一个样，在你背后一个样。

在你面前，好像好喜欢你，对你很亲切，

在你的背后，却可能很讨厌你，甚至看不起你。

人，真的会以狗眼看人低的心情去看某一些人。

有些人，会因着你的身份，你的身家，你的样貌，

你的身材，你的智慧，你的衣着，你的观念，等等来评估你是否是值得交的朋友。

有些人更用以上的标准来决定他们应该花‘几分’的努力或真诚来对待你。

为什么人会如此恐怖？

为什么人要用这些所谓的标准来交朋友？

一个很有钱与另一个经济不好的人，一些人会贴向那个比较富有的，

原因可能是因为跟富有的混在一起会显得自己更有地位更有面子，

拜托！你是跟人做朋友还是跟钱做朋友？

一个很帅/美和一个样貌平平的男生或女生，一些人，不管同性或异性，

会因为这样而刻意去取悦样貌较好的那个。

这是为什么？难道样貌较好就一定是最有道德，最好，最善良，最完美的吗?

还是说能够成为那个样貌好看的朋友就很了不起？然后再把自己当成很潮很IN的？

那个叫虚伪！

有些人会有一种看不起人的心态去看别人。

看不起一些人会有成功的一天，看不起一些人能够做得到某些事等等。

那些看不起别人的人，你们知道这样很过分吗？

但也要谢谢这种人，让那些被看不起的人，

能够发奋图强去争取更好的事物与未来。

问问大家，

难道富有的人就一辈子富有? 难道穷人就一辈子穷吗？

难道成功的人永远成功？失败的人注定永远失败？

那些已经把现实放为做人前提的人，

其实，你们不要这样，

因为这是你们自己的损失，

把这些所谓的标准看得太重了，其实你们会不会觉得这样子做人很累？

每天要计算到底要有什么标准才值得你去接近的人，这样不会辛苦吗？

人，需要的是真诚的朋友，

不是每天计算来计算去的朋友。

不要因为人家的身家，样貌，与智慧去评估别人。

要看的是人的道德及内在美。

希望大家不要对号入座，

因为这只是纯粹今天的个人感触。

其实这里所说的是社会里的一部分人。不是每个都那么丑陋的。

世界不只是住这种虚伪的人，

还有很多很多人，还是以真诚的心对待及关心彼此。

人的心，也可以很美丽的。

下次有机会再分享那些拥有美丽又真诚的心的人吧。=）

A Happy Birthday Celebration :)

Happy happy birthday to me! C:

Ya I know. I'm one year older.

Did not manage to celebrate birthday at home this year.

Will only be back to home sweet home during CNY.

However, I was surprised with the video made

with wishes from dad, mum, emily, jasmine and joanne.

Celebrated with friends last sat (19/11).

Its a simple one, but with lots of laughter.

I really feel grateful deep from my heart.

I know i always have all of you with me.

This christmas, will be the 1st christmas away from home.

I miss the christmas carolings, i miss the visitings from house to house.

I miss everything back home. :(

I wont be able to go back as the christmas period is actually study week for my final.

I checked the air tickets and its expensive.

Hah..i was back to uni from home for only 1 week.

But mannn I feel like been here for so many weeks already! ><

Booked the air tic yesterday for CNY, but 2 months from now is LONG!!

I know i have to appreciate the moments spent in uni right now,

since only 2 months left to the end of sem5.

thats is why i keep on motivating myself to study and enjoy to the max before going for internship next year.

I hope my motivation is still ON..

Have to get back to study again. 2 more midterm papers to go!

Stress!

I'm here!

I don't understand the reason that

I will leave some words here almost every time when i have exams,

Perhaps its a way to ease myself.

My progress of revision is slow.

AND at this late night......

I'm still stuck at the 2nd chap out of 6 chaps that will be tested tmr!!

Quite disappointed with myself.

Should had motivate and urge myself to study harder!

Anyway, regret is no use.

Better get off to study now.

Will be back after test! :)

God, I pray for your blessings in the coming midterms!

Please bless me with intelligence, widsom, health and happiness!

AMEN! ^^

我是个离谱鱼儿！

今天我竟然发现已经是星期六了，

Deepavali的假期放了好多天让我不知道时间过得超级快，

这一次我真的发觉我是个好奇怪又离谱的人！！

还以为今天才星期五，本来还心想我说计划的，

还能准时完成，怎知，我只剩下一天的时间！

太离谱了！啊！ 还以为还有很多时间的 T.T

算了，今天不管怎样要努力k书了！

下个星期四就要回家放假一个星期了。

我一定要先把手头上的功课及复习做完！

很想写一个贴分享上个星期去Hatyai的点滴，

看来就只有回到家才有时间写了。

这个假期看来又是个 非常忙碌的了！

又要复习开学后的考试，又要做assignment！

刺激又给力！ xD

今天就到此为止，我要回去地球k书去！

:) nice day

Finally its friday and I can have some rest!

This week was really busy with lectures and tutorials.

and I have tonnes of assignments and projects to be completed!! T.T

hope everything runs smooth. i know i can do it! hehe (:

pray hard

I hate being here, alone.

I miss home, I miss my family.

How nice if i manage to fly back home anytime

i want.

To be honest, I seriously need someone who can spend time chit-chatting with me at night

I miss the moment having pillow-talk with sisters every night.

I know i'm too dependable to my family and friends.

The main reason is because I'm afraid being alone.

Although I have close friend that talk to me almost every night before we sleep,

but then that was only when my friend is in hostel.

When she is back home, i feel the same again.

i'm always okay in the morning, but feeling fearful to be alone at night.

i hate this feeling.

Dear God,

I know You are always with me,

please strengthen my faith,

remind me of your presence in my life.

remind me that I'm not alone,

because Jesus is my companion,

and there is nothing i shall fear.

In Jesus's name i pray.Amen.

peace

somehow i tend to be angry out of nothing

i understand this is closely related to the recent situations i'd encounter,

although it seemed its not related at all.

i hope that everything will be fine,

everyone especially my family is always happy, healthy and safe.

praying for everything to be okay,

with a peaceful heart and mind. :)

Amen.

let go all of our worries,

lift it to our almighty God.

Reality.Change

I've been running away from reality,

and I realized that all these while,

my thoughts and behavior was so immature and selfish.

Its time to change.

快乐，很重要！

假期剩下一个月多而已了。

没想到时间过得好快好快！

工作已经塞满了大部分的时间，

但是老实说跟家人的时间都是满满的快乐和悠闲。

虽然假期了没怎么去哪里旅游，

但是假期里我真的轻松好多！:)

其实，在这假期里有好多的想法和感触，

很想全都写出来，

但是每次要写了又停下来；

坦白说，

我不知道这些感触都是一时情绪化的，还是理智的。

之前太情绪化的我，常常让自己感到很难过。

我不懂为什么。

但我知道，很多时候的情绪化，

其实是能避免的。

让自己做一些事，能够让自己更理智，

更清醒地看到自己要的是什么，需要什么。

总觉得人，不要想太多，

想太多，只会让自己站牛角尖。

这又何必呢？

一些东西真的那么重要吗？

难道没有了这一些，就不能正常活下去吗？

既然没有也能快乐，

何必挂念或留恋那些不能得到或达到的呢？

说和做是两回事，

大家都知道，简单即是快乐，

但是还是会为一些得不到的东西而难过。

人生，是一个永远学不完的学问啊。我想，这是大家永远学不完，参不透的学问。

期待

不知不觉，假期过了快要两个月了，

好快呀！我不想那么快就开学。

虽然还有另外两个月，但是总感觉到时间过得越来越快。

今年的Gawai Holiday，我跟家人一起回爸爸的家乡Dalat, Sibu。

在那之间，我们也去了其它小地方。

虽然这些地方都只是小镇子，但是却让我们一家过得充实的一个星期。

这两个月里，我也在补习中心当tutor及admin，

每天回到家，真的好累好累。

还好，我教的三年级生还蛮听话的，

加上与一些同事兼朋友在一起工作，

让我觉得在那里工作还是有趣的。

我好想乘着假期时间去游山玩水，去旅行。

不知道有没有机会呢？

因为，只有在假期，我才能和家人及这里的朋友尽情享乐。

总感觉到和朋友的时间是少之又少，

我希望能多与朋友聚一聚。

还有，好多好多的计划，希望都能成真。

the end of 2nd year in uni :D

Yay! finished the last paper for this semester!

what a relief. well, the paper was really tough.

actually i don't know what i was writing just now.

after the test, I went to komtar with km, huiru and xinying.

we had our dinner and bought some souvenirs to be brought home tmr.

after that we got back to hostel.

i was busy packing and cleaning the dorm for more than 4 hours.

i have 3 big boxes kept in hostel's store room!

my things are getting more and more each semester!

can't imagine how to bring all these back during the final semester! :(

going back tmr, feel very excited because i was away from home for 3 months!

thank god that i was able to 'survive' throughout this semester,

with great friends around me.

i know i'm blessed! :)

without them, my study life in USM couldn't be so interesting.

so, dear friends in USM, we will not able to meet in these 4 months holiday!

don't worry i will miss you! hehe :D

here are random photos taken with my best friends in USM,

we have taken a LOT of pics but at the moment i only able to sort a few for sharing.

too tired to choose,

after 2 weeks of mind-torturing and lack of sleep for final exam,

now its over!

thats all for today. i better go to sleep now.

i'm exhausted! @@

tata~ :)

when we were in 1st year sem 1 :)

1st year sem 2

2nd year sem 1 (trip to Georgetown)

2nd year sem 1 (trip to Genting Highlands)

2nd year sem 2

*its really nice having u all as friends,

although i never tell, but i guess all of us truly know it deep inside our heart*

:)

Blessings :)

2 more papers to go!

The mood to study totally gone!

Oh NO!!!

Must get back the mood to study..><

Will be having japanese test on thursday and frs on friday.

I'm more worried with frs,

as its really hard for me to memorize the standards, definitions and etc.

I always think about the plans that I will do for the coming holiday,

there are lots of new things that I wanna try and learn.

I just hope that this coming 4-months-holiday will be a interesting one!

hehehe...cant wait to have holiday! :D

Anyway, today is not a productive day,

after the taxation test this morning,

I slept for few hours, then ended up watching dramas.

Aiksss...how how how?

Feel nervous and worried now.

Better get back to revision.

God, please bless me with concentration and wisdom. Amen!

:D

Had chit-chat with my parents last night,

I asked them to pray for me so that I can do well in examinations.

And my parents said I'm always in their prayers.

I felt so touched because they gave me encouragements which I needed so much.

Dad said always be grateful for what we have in life.

Each morning when we wake up, we should thank God for giving us such a wonderful life.

Show gratitude, be grateful.

You will find that, its really great to be who you are now.

cheers! :D

I like this picture so much.

Somehow it inspired me that,

each and everyone of us is special,

no one can replace you or me.

We are all God's masterpiece.

Everyone is made special.

We are all special in God's eyes.

God treat us as our beloved son and daughters.

Try to be optimistic. Be happy and thankful. Give thanks.

:)

motivation recharged! :)

4 down, 3 more to go!

but my level of motivation is decreasing :(

its because the mood of going home overrides the mood to study!

one more week to freedom! and 8 more days to home sweet home :)

*countdown-ing!*

i just hope i can do well in exams!

in order to achieve my plans, i must work extra hard!

only then, i can enjoy my 4 months holiday without worries!

may god bless everyone around me,

especially my family and friends, with health and joyfulness.

may god be with me throughout the exam week. :D

in Jesus's name, I pray. Amen! :)

みなさん、がんばってください！:)

God's word is Love :)

God's words gives me strength to continue.

God's words keeps me strong.

God's words builds confidence in me.

I'm revived! :D

I love you, God Daddy!

Please be with me throughout the examinations.

I need your presence, your blessings! :)

In Jesus's holy name, I pray! :)

感恩の一天

不知不觉又是考final的时候了。

还剩12天而已。

现在总于忙完所有的功课及presentation。

是时候努力拼书了。

我不懂我做得到吗。。会否又是不专心？

我告诉自己；

我要认真去面对每一件事。

一定要做到最好！

仪儿，靠主得胜！加油！J

感恩这一天。因为一切都进行得顺利，今天也是这学期最后一天上课了。

时间如飞箭的过，虽然感觉轻松，但是也有不舍得。

不舍得上语言课的老师及朋友。

毕竟有些来自不同的课系，难得有机会再聚在一起了。

各位朋友，有缘再相聚！J

与日语老师(めぐみせんせい)的合照 :)

老师颁给我们最佳戏剧奖哦！

永恩，我，欣铮

知足常乐-简单的道理

有时要幸运也要有天时地利人和。

这个也是种命运吧。

不是每个人都那么好运。

虽然说，人自己定他的命运。

可是往往命运主宰了人。

要怎么说呢？我自己也不懂。

我觉得。。。

做好自己的本分，其他的我们都不能决定，

也轮不到我们去决定。

不要怨天尤人，

我们还能够选择去做我们应该做的事。

命运的东西，很难说。

虽然看到其他人好，我们自然而然会羡慕，

但大家都看你好我好。。

不要忘记自己已经很幸福了。

知足常乐。这是很简单的道理。

醒一醒！

耶稣爱我

最近想太多，担心太多了。

主，帮助我，坚强我。

我需要祢的陪伴和扶持。

保佑家人朋友都平安健康开心。

听了圣歌，心情舒服很多了。

很久没有去做弥撒，我也因此软弱了。

圣体很重要，滋养我们的灵魂。

没有圣体，灵魂软弱了，信德也因此动摇。

我知道祢永远与我同在。

帮助我不离开祢，不拒绝祢对我的恩宠。

祢的荣耀高过诸天，

我要赞美主祢， 耶稣！

唯有祢的话是力量，平安，是光明！

我爱祢主，

每一次，当我信德脆弱时，祢必伸出祢的手扶我。

啊爸父， 我爱你。

感谢赞美祢！